* HE SURPRISED ME!!!!* showered ALONE!!!!
Dec 23, 2018
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it is that official good morning good
afternoon type of vlog today but I am
just Ollie had some things to do I hate
how honestly I wish that my phone would
give me the option to connect to my
Bluetooth because I really hate when I
get in the car and it always does it to
me always and it's like you guys to the
Bluetooth but anyways I am just leaving
because I am I'll he had to go earlier
and go and do some errands and he
brought me home I gave that you guys
this speaks volumes of my husband
because Ollie I which and I've told you
guys this before all he has not like a
really a surprise II type of person like
he just he never has been he doesn't he
doesn't like surprises he doesn't really
like giving surprises but for me it's
like that type of stuff I feel so
special that he seriously took the time
to think about the gift that he got me
and oh my god I'm so excited
so I will share with you guys the gift
when I get home I'm gonna keep it a
secret
until then I did take my nails all off I
yeah I need to do in a whole new set
which I don't know if I'm gonna have
time to do it today I mean my
tomorrow bull see I just really needed
to take them off and prep them for
another set and I clearly knew they
needed a new set because I had one pop
off on me and so I was like so I took
those all off today and I got my final
so excited hate o'clock this morning you
guys I get it ain't known I'm like
really a mess on you have to ring the
doorbell like really so needless to say
I kind of have an idea that it was but I
wasn't a hundred percent because it said
it wasn't gonna come until tomorrow so I
was really excited when I got to see it
I was like oh my gosh
so anyways yes I am so so so thrilled I
got my phone I know so now I can just
start start start start I get to start
making my projects but yeah I am so
excited and I did do my weigh in today
oh I felt they were gonna be busy the
way that all the cars were coming out I
did do my weigh-in today so I will fill
you in there and just up my oment okay
so I have a question for you guys
have any of you guys ever tried Arizona
southern style real brewed sweet tea
it's only 90 calories oh crap why is he
is serving per container 3 oops well I
guess we'll know here soon if I like it
or not
it's alright but it's been so long since
I've drink anything out of a cannon I
don't like the taste of the can it's
alright it will work for today but I'm
have to be really cautious about how
much I'm drinking of that because I did
not realize that it is 90 calories per
serving and there's three servings in
this can now that's a lot of calories so
anyway yes you guys seen my my weigh-in
so that's another 3 pounds down this
week and you know with everything that I
have been going through this week and a
little bit of my coping of eating the
extras that I really clearly don't need
but I'm not going to judge it it is what
it is it happened I brushed my knees off
I've moved on
I'm definitely very excited that I did
not gain I really am excited that I did
not gain I didn't do as much activity
exercise wise this week like I was
hoping again no place for judgments you
know what I'm making it through and
that's what's made me proud and like I
told only today I said you know what
honey I said I'm a diaper I know I know
I clearly know that I'm not going to
lose you know 24 pounds in a couple of
days to make it be you know that I've
reached a hundred pounds but here's the
thing
my initial six-month actual review is
not until January 11th so like I told
him you know what I still have until the
11th - honestly
meet my hundred pound of gold in six
months so I am really gonna push for
that though I think it's doable it's
gonna be tough but I can do it I've
proved to myself that when I'm in the
lowest I still lost weight so I know I
am capable of doing that it's just a
matter of making sure that I continue to
remind myself why I'm doing these things
and so anyways let me drop this off with
Ollie so I showed him I was like look
what I found I was like really I mean I
like it and he was like you know I've
seen that in the store before he goes
but I thought it was an alcohol drink I
said oh god I said I didn't even pay
attention to that I said let me check so
I checked right I don't see anything
that says alcohol I said well baby if I
come up a little on the funny side
you'll know why he started laughing he's
like honey
please tell me that you're not drinking
that lady's walking her dog I've never
seen her before but she's walking her
dog which is like I want to say like a
golden retriever which okay he's being a
little bit obnoxious but she just went
down and like punched him in the head
like full fist boom on his head and then
as I was looking to my rearview mirror I
see her like jerking him around on his
chain it's like you know if people can't
have a family you know if you can't
handle your day animals then you
shouldn't have them that just breaks my
heart to see somebody how many know
they're him it's like really they're
innocent you know they only have the way
you allow them to act and you can teach
them you don't have to beat them in
order to teach them at least I don't
think any ways that so now I am on my
way to target I was saying I got my
vinyl but I need some type of hard
protection to put them in because they
come in sheets and I don't want any
accidents but the kids play with them
anything like that so I am gonna go
ahead put them
look for like a hard piece so I can
protect it as much as possible because I
definitely don't want any
damage I need I really need to find
which they might even have not the
Dollar Tree I don't know because they do
have a lot of like organizing stuff so
they might have something like that but
the thing that I have found with my the
Dollar Tree are amazing baskets is that
the lids don't really like fill tight at
least I haven't found that but they
might have them and I might just not be
clearly see them so I am going to go for
that today and see if I can find
something that might work at least even
if it works a little bit
because I really want to make sure that
I am taking care of them the best I can
and tonight for dinner my husband's make
it be a steak he asked me this week he's
like okay what do you offer your way in
dinner because like I told you guys
before I do my higher dinners my higher
calorie dinners my heavier dinners the
day might weigh in if I'm gonna have
something that is a little bit more
heavy or not that I can't have it during
the week that's that's clearly not it
because again this is not just a
temporary diet where I have to like you
know be less and at a certain time but I
do try to protect how much I eat during
the week versus on my way and day all on
myself to splurge a little bit and more
or less - it just kind of is teaching me
like a budget thing as well that you
know it's okay to not always have you
know t-bone steaks and you know all that
stuff but anyway so he asked me today
he's like what do you want for dinner
today ask me this week what was my
weigh-in dinner and I was like you know
what I really think that I want to have
steak and he was like okay you suck
that's fine
so he's making steak and I don't know
what the sides are gonna be if it's just
gonna be his salad which I'm totally
cool with and you know losing that three
pounds if you think about it that was
also me having the Taco Bell this week I
also had chicken alfredo this week I
mean clearly I have
food like I clearly do mean more food I
had chocolate cake this week I've had
things but again like all he told me
today he was like a me think of it in
this aspect you have not taken away
everything but you have just taught
yourself to have things in such good
moderation that you don't feel like you
have completely disabled yourself from
having any of those things and that's
completely a 100 percent right like I
totally 100% agree with him and I feel
like he totally hit it right on the nail
that yeah I I don't take everything out
of my diet where I can't have nothing
and like I don't you know I don't tell
myself you can't have carbs you can't
have sweets you can't have this you
can't have that like I just don't
because in the long run I'm gonna have
those things at some given time you know
in the next 60 70 80 years can add that
extra amount of time but I mean you know
realistically sitting there and looking
I'm gonna have those foods at some given
time and
I knew it was gonna happen oh it was
like working itself up and it what it
made me mad if it would have went away
anyways uh so I thought streeted
up what's aim oh so I mean in those men
of yours I'm not gonna not have those
items ever again so clearly I need to
still allow myself to have those things
but teach myself like hey it's okay to
have XY and Z but you also need to teach
yourself that having those items you can
have them but in moderation like I
didn't have in my normal normal eating
habit as you would say as you will with
chicken alfredo you guys I would have
had like three to four servings like
three to four sir adult servings on my
one plate and it just wasn't that way
this time like I literally had my I had
I want to say I had like probably a cup
total with the chicken and the noodles
well it's not it wasn't noodles it was
um tortellini I want to say I had a cup
of a serving I had one
one just one piece of bread and then I
had
was not it I think that was it and I
didn't even finish my tortellini I ate I
ate all my chickens I always tried to
make sure that I always eat my protein
no matter what mill that I eat I always
try to eat as much of the protein over
the pasta and stuff but I'll still have
some of it but I'd rather fill up more
cob viously on my praia on my protein so
in return I went ahead and grabbed the
chicken and then I had some of the
tortellini and I did have my one piece
of garlic bread and that was it that's
all I had and then like when I had that
talked about the other day I had one and
a half I guess you could say of the
chicken crispy taco thingy because
that's where I eat the other half if you
remember and that I had one burrito and
that was it so I mean you know and yeah
I did have a piece of cake and I didn't
I indulged myself in it and I loved
every taste of it but I didn't sit there
and beat myself up for it I've just
that's where my mindset has changed so
much that now I can allow myself to have
things but I just have it all in
moderation clearly what else
I think that was that really was it out
of this week that was just like whoa
type of eating but anyways um I am going
to call my mom and check on her I have
not heard from her in a couple of days
so I am going to call and check on her
see how she is doing and then I will
check in with you guys once I get to
okay guys so I am just not going to
targets I'm going to go in and see if
they have anything in the door spot just
because I haven't been here for a couple
weeks
and then I will show you guys I'd let
you know where I just go oh you guys it
is packed here like I don't think you've
ever seen tomorrow so packed besides on
Black Friday
whoo well I'm for a little long
but I want to show you think what could
he found her and it's got like a
removable please remove protective layer
before using as a decoration but it says
believe you know I think this is can be
used for so many different things and
this one's only three dollars so pick
that up
oh you know what no I'm not
it is damaged so I'm not gonna get that
you not today but anyways yeah it is
ridiculously bad mean over there so I am
looking really quick and then I am
probably going to get out of this store
because there was nothing for me here
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but anyways whoops I was hoping to find
some tips but I'm not finding those
either
Yumi's having no luck
anyways hurry you guys I just wanted to
show you excuse me
this is their mail section but
everything was like been chosen over
anyways that's that there is really
nothing but I'm looking for section
unless they have more somewhere that I'm
not seeing
which could very well be I know that
they have like a section
yeah oh these are cute like little
stocking stuffers
okay well you guys that was a complete
below so I am going to I think I really
have anything for me here so I think I'm
going to check out really not so I
finally got what I needed but let me
tell you that store is nothing but the
madhouse there's so many people in that
store like yeah it was ridiculous but I
got what I needed
and I got out and I will see that yeah
my boy door here I am actually put this
in the back here
so my shirts up in the air we are doing
good um I am proud to say that I walked
the whole store I did not check in as
much as I wanted but like I was saying
it is crazy in their way crazy like too
crazy for my country
so I just got my I got my light bulbs
and the little compartment that I'm
gonna put my vinyl in they had the boxes
there for at 499 so that was actually a
really good deal I was expecting to at
least pay for Austin because I really
thought about I was like you know I
really just don't see how Dollar Tree is
gonna have that big of a apartment so
that's why I went ahead and got the one
that I did but anyways I am thinking you
see what time it is
I'm so thirsty time it is 4:18
oh my gosh I am so hot um I am debating
you guys because it is such a madhouse
like I cannot wait I can't wait for
Christmas season to be over to soil the
shoppers go I'm going ninite um anyways
I am trying to think if I want to go to
Dollar Tree no no I really have nothing
else to do like have nothing else to
really get but I was thinking if I go to
Dollar Tree I can check and see if
they've gotten anything new which I
could probably just go look I've heard
that this is my little gadget gadget
that I take you guys in the store with
me I've heard that they've already
started bringing out like Valentine's
stuff I don't know if that's true or not
but it's worth a shot to look so I think
don't hit this tree truck behind me
thank God for backup cameras
now people are getting too close me I'm
gonna let me out anyways I heard that
they have what what that they have
released some Valentine stuff I don't
know if it is true or not I didn't the
other day when I was in Dollar Tree I
did not see any Valentine stuff but last
time I went was Sunday so I am thinking
that I'm gonna just go and pop over
there really quick just just to see what
they have if they have anything good and
if they don't know it's a ok I'm just
gonna put my head in and pop my head out
I really really it is crazy
oh yeah I tell ya ya God not honey
anyways and there's so much stuff picked
over at Target like I was just like you
know there was tons of stuff that I
could have gotten but they didn't have
like a lot of like out for instance I
was looking at the
the tips for the nails anyways I wanted
my nails are so messed up I really need
to like get them done
anyways but what I was seeing was I was
looking for the tips but later I got
like two options of tips which is never
like target like target usually has like
tons of different know things to choose
from they really didn't today which I
mean granted I am pretty sure a lot of
this stuff is just picked over because
of the holidays and stuff a lot of
people are I'm finding doing their nails
and stuff now
or are they even going to get them done
a lot of them are because a it's cheaper
way cheaper that way and B it's fun you
can do your nose as many times as you
want and it's still cheaper to buy the
product then go and get them done for me
personally you know I miss going to the
salon and getting my nails done I do for
the fact base that I just like to to
have them dial but it's definitely not
something that I am not capable or that
I cannot do I know that I am very
capable
of doing my own nails it's just a matter
of doing them and so but I do do them
and I love doing animals it's you know
it's like a relaxing thing which I'm
thinking because it's already 4:30 and
I'm still going to Dollar Tree before I
go I am really thinking I probably will
not do my nails before then or I won't
do my nails today just because clearly
I'm just honestly shoot I'm not gonna
have time but it's okay
I think I'm gonna do them to America's
only has an appointment tomorrow
or usually Sunday's is's day anyways
that out died for himself so I think
tomorrow I will set and do a set of
nails I'm just debating on how long I
want to do them is it you know do I need
to have them short because of doing my
projects or you know will they work out
okay being personally long because I
love my nails
not long long but you know I like having
links to them come on Lady you don't
stop you just yield sure there's no cars
coming
we don't know how to do a roundabout
anyways so I am thinking if I do them
tomorrow then I can do that and then
maybe like I want to do a review on my
cricket so I want to film one of those
but I don't know because it's just like
something that I just want to get
started on and I don't know any other
time that I'm gonna have time to really
like break it out and really work on it
all that so yeah trying to just figure
it all out see what's gonna work the
best it is just starting to spring cool
it's gonna be nice this next week though
well actually for the next two weeks
because Jeremiah is on winter break so
you know he gets to go to bed a little
bit later and as long as his behavior
holds up and he doesn't start acting
but he gets to go to bed a little bit
later and he has to sleep in and my
little monkey he has been like really
taken advantage of his weekend it's a
sleepy man which is great I mean I'm all
game for it I am NOT one of those
parents that I expect my kids to be up
at 8 o'clock seven o'clock whatever I
let make his sleep until they wake up
which the babies on the other hand they
don't think they need to sleep really
are we leaving
sorry I'm waiting for those parking spot
if these people will go before somebody
pulls in and takes it for me because
they don't see me waiting oh okay I just
hit somebody um anyways well I'm getting
the parking spot because I've been
sitting here I was waiting for it
anyways so for me I don't like I'm not
one of those parents like oh my dad's
gotta be up at this time last time
please do not hit the kerb Amy hit the
curb Amy
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okay clearly this is not gonna work I'm
gonna have to how come oh okay you guys
know I'm really stuck I think I'm just
gonna have to do it and hope
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Oh scares me hate when that happens
goodness like gosh I'm like thinking I'm
gonna run over something like really bad
anyways okay you guys my camera link is
ten percent so I'm going to plug you
guys in I'm gonna go in $2 to look at
then I'll be right back
oh my goodness you guys it is hot nasty
it is hot and well it's not hot it's
cold but I'm hot because I just got done
walking around the store and I am ready
to go I got some really cool stuff so it
will be nice to be able to
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but anyways I got some really nice stuff
and I'm really excited for it and well
he just called he's like are you selling
I'm like really
okay he's like it's totally okay don't
clean dark dark dark it is so busy
because it's Saturday of course some
reason week head is like but these are
the 9th of May really really really have
a herd
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anyways that a really nice selection of
stuff they didn't have any um not all
the time so maybe in other stores they I
mean I know all dollar trees carry
different not all the same stuff or they
bring out stuff different timings so
maybe some stars have already started
for now like Valentine's stuff since but
anyways
definitely definitely it is
okay I'm gonna be stuck here all day
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anyways so maybe that's why they bring
out extra stuff I'm thinking but yeah
here they wall at this Dollar Tree and
Kaiser the one that I usually always go
to they haven't started bringing out
Valentine self which is going I mean
hello Valentine's isn't until February
so like it's no big thing but I'm
excited to move the Christmas stuff out
and start bringing new stuff in though
but it's like you know we've been seeing
the the Christmas stuff for a while now
which is fine I mean like I said it's
all good and nothing is bad with it but
so anyways I got a couple things for my
business
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because so so it's not
so
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so anyways it's sorry I would show my
present sharply variedly
so anyways I just have never I don't
like trash cans I just I had never have
liked trash cans so I don't know if I
will ever actually ever home at nether
trashcan in my house like so anywho
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I said he was starting dinner
don't know what the site is gonna be if
it sounds I said either where it really
doesn't bother me more than likely is my
image shoes solid because he loves salad
and I did you so know it's not like it's
a big deal might have stolen her my
potatoes it really doesn't
I hope you guys had a wonderful day it
was when I came out a targeted started
to sprinkle a little bit it wasn't too
bad but harvest sprinkle so I knew that
it was raining was on its way it was a
really nice day all day and it was just
you know I don't even have to have lots
and lots of hours to myself to feel like
I actually got a break or or whatever
you know I'm just one of those that I'm
just settled if I have some time you
know and that's kind of where I am as
you know I have been out for about three
and a half hours and that's been good
and in that time I've done a lot of
walking so a lot of exercise as well
because I did not own a shop in a motor
car from motor scooter whatever at
Target I did not go into while I don't
read doesn't have motor scooters so I
walked in Dollar Tree so the whole time
I walked and I hope far and I feel great
my back was tidying up a little bit
there at the very very end but I was
just like okay
I am going to be going into the car here
singing I'll have a break and let me
back you know relax I turn you guys ok
so this is really weird
please but for the most of you that have
been with me since the beginning it's
been about two years that I have not
successfully been able to give myself a
shower okay
that's the transparent as transparent
can get that is seen as honest as honest
as anybody can get I have not been able
to fully get myself a full shower in two
years and when I see that that means
like being able to wash my back and wash
my lady parts you know
because I was I've been big and I can't
reach that I can't successfully breach
those areas and clean it under my
stomach really good and make sure that I
rinse up really good and get out of the
shower feeling fresh and so only has you
know bless his heart he has been there
to help I'm sorry
you know I hate to see you do this
like why are you sorry like my wife if
she can't do it I will take care of you
if it means that you could not use the
restroom
I would wipe your bottom like well I
love you so much now I will do anything
I can and I've always meant so much to
me with you know he would tell me those
things but it was you know it was
embarrassing it was truly truly truly
embarrassing to me to have to have my
husband
to have my husband shower me it was
embarrassing you guys and when it was
done showering it would you know help me
come once I got out he would help dry me
really go to make sure my stomach was
dry really well
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you make sure they keep hold right under
all of my stomach all in those areas
that break down your skin breaks down
because you know if it doesn't get dry
it starts creating moisture and that's
what causes you know infections and a
hole died and so he has been there for
two years
you guys daily making sure that I feel
clean you know because like he said it's
important to me to make sure that you
feel clean and if that means me
showering you so that you feel clean I'm
going to do that if I can help you so
that you're not getting these rushes
that break down and get so painful I
will do that he puts the cornstarch on
my skin and the medicines on my skin and
rubs it in and make sure that it's all
blinded and I do what I can for myself
you know I don't just lay there and let
him just you know tend to every need of
my body like that's not how it works but
you know he's there and he helps me in
the areas I can't do I can successfully
say yesterday I finally did it I had did
my very first shower on my I washed my
hair which I always can wash my hair
that's never been an issue but I was
able to wash under my stomach I was able
to wash my backside I was able to wash
all the areas that needed to be clean
they got out of the shower feeling so
refreshed and clean and smelling good
I was able to go in the room and blow
dry my skin where I needed to and I
didn't apply medicine because my
medicine is a very far like I only have
a certain amount and I can not take the
chances of accidentally not getting it
in the right places so of course I just
didn't put the medicine on and he was
able to but you guys it was such an
amazing like oh my gosh I stood there
yesterday after I did all that it kind
of got a little teary-eyed because I was
excited
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I know this is something that you
couldn't wait to be able to do and I am
so proud of you and let me tell you that
was such a big milestone means I'm
finally get back in dependency back up
I can give myself a shower and get
hopefully very clean I gave myself a
shower today you know and it just fills
God it feels good to be able to you know
bathe my children and bathe myself and
not have to worry about is only gonna be
home is he gonna be areas and you know I
don't have to eat I have to lean for
because I'm taking little by little
steps but I'm little by little taking my
dependency back but being able to do
these things and he is so excited to see
me be able to do that so it was such a
nice feeling and I just couldn't wait to
share those things with you people
those are the things that make me feel
so good to share aren't those things
things that I know that I want to see
myself continue to accomplish because
they may seem little
to some that don't struggle with those
things but those are huge to people that
do struggle with those things and let me
tell you that was such an amazing
feeling to be like I will also share
with you guys getting close to the house
at the doors but I'm gonna close my blog
here for you guys I hope you guys enjoy
today and I again hope that you guys are
having amazing an amazing weekend starts
a weekend and I hope that you guys will
sleep well tonight I will check in with
you guys bright shiny tomorrow and till
then you guys sweet dreams I don't know
what other parents do this but I don't
look at this it's like a little treat
hold on you guys hold on okay give you a
stick you just dip it in and tip it out
dip it in dip it up
let's throw dip it in and dip it out
honey just like that
this is their little that's where you
have a yeah no don't don't don't don't
don't I don't want that torn off well
I'm just do that one to your mother here
here if you twist it it will collect a
little bit more you guys like that so
easy a little snack it's fun for them
too bad Maya doesn't like pretzels
anyways I just thought I would show you
guys our little our little dessert snack
and it's just actually got this from the
Dollar Tree so let's just chocolate
fudge frosting Pillsbury and then I just
had a bag of regular pretzel sticks
can you just dip them in you can do it
with a key with graham crackers too
always another way that you can do it so
anyways I just wanted to show my babies
having a little dessert say good night
love you
gorgeous yes sir okay you guys so I just
actually walked through the door really
quick I know I closed my vlog but
remember I said I was gonna show you
guys my surprise look yes my husband got
me my face covered he got it today I was
so excited I was like yes my husband's
is so sweet I'm sitting here looking
into the mirror or into the thing but
yeah look at that isn't that bomb he's
so sweet
here's love him anyways it's a Coney
air facial for facial cleaning brushes
waterproof rechargeable y'all anyway
someone to show you guys all right take
care I'll see you guys tomorrow
